ABOUT ME

Hi Ladies! Welcome to my online diary. I am known in Youtube as a Beauty & Lifestyle Vlogger (you may check out my Youtube Channel), but before I got into youtube, I have already written numerous books on Wattpad and had posted several blogs on my old sites. I don’t want to lose my passion in writing that’s why I decided to start blogging again. This site is about my journey and I’d be more than happy to share with you. Xoxo, Lady Martin

Sunday, August 28, 2016

Ugly Duckling To Swan (MY STORY)







                 As requested by many, I decided to share my MAPS Journey with you.

I am frequently asked if maputi na daw ba talaga ako noong bata pa lang. Well, I will tell you honestly... my answer is and will always be "NO". I was the kind of girl na talagang hindi mapapansin.

Maitim, mataba, maliit, peklatin and baduy. May maidadagdag pa ba ko sa description ko sa sarili ko noon?


13th Birthday

I wanted to enter showbiz before. I wanted to become a singer and an actress. But I was always rejected. Yes, I have the voice but when it comes to my appearance... sobrang hindi ako qualified. My mom is a beauty consultant kaya sobrang pang Diyosa talaga yung ganda niya. Most of her clients ay nagtataka kung bakit ang layo ko sa kanya. Yung feeling na para akong pulubi pag tumabi sa kanya? Nakakatawa kung iisipin pero totoong nangyari yun.



First Year High School w/ my Bestfriend



The picture on the right was me and my best friend. We were on our freshmen high school having our excursion. Chinese yung best friend ko kaya naman maputi talaga siya. Kaya pagdating sa pictures namin, talagang naiiwan yung kulay ko. Sobrang negra lang kasi talaga ako. Actually ang nickname ko sa bahay namin e "Negra". Ganun kalala yung kulay ko.


I was on my second year in High School when my mother let me use the "SUPER WHITENING BODY CREAM LOTION". After one to two months of using it, her clients started to see the big change. Pumuti daw ako bigla. 


That was me. The girl with a palayok sa ulo. Pumuti na ako diyan. Ang dami nang nag cocompliment sa skin ko. Madaming nagulat talaga sa changes ko. Ilang month pa lang ako gumagamit ng "Super Whitening Body Cream Lotion" niyan pero ang laki na ng binago ko.

Naalagaan ko na yung skin starting second year high school. Though hindi laging "Super Whitening" yung gamit ko. My mom made sure na tuloy pa din ako sa pag gamit ng MAPS. Consistent ako pagdating sa Tretinoin with Vitamin C Soap.  That soap is probably the best whitening soap ever! As in, wala akong masabi sa Tretinoin Soap. Nakakaputi, nagpapakinis at nagpapabanat ng mukha. I really love that soap.

Maputi pa din naman nung 4th year high school kaso hindi sobrang puti kasi nagkaroon kami ng CAT. May mga times na nabibilad sa araw. Tsaka pabaya pa kasi talaga ako sa skin ko that time. Hindi pa talaga ako masyadong conscious. Pero malaki na pinuti ko compared nung hindi ako gumagamit ng whitening products.



When I entered College, EVERYTHING CHANGED!

Sobrang nangitim ako at na stress nung nag start akong pumasok sa UST. Commute lang kasi ako eceryday from Cainta to UST. Kaya talagang nabibilad ako sa araw. Then every lunch time, nililibot ko buong UST para kainan lahat ng kainan. Then nag ka PE pa ko ng outdoor. Napunta ako sa PE na Volleyball and yung schedule e 1 pm to 3 pm ng tanghali so bilad na bilad ako sa araw. So sa kasamaang palad, sobrang naging negra ako. 

Nanghihingi ako kay mama ng whitening kaso ayaw niya kong pagamitin ng mga lotions na mataas ang whitening content. Sayang lang daw sakin kasi nga lagi akong nabibilad sa araw. 

So tinanggap ko na lang na talagang mangingitim ako hanggat hindi pa tapos yung PE ko na subject. Isang sem yung Volleyball PE ko so isang sem din akong maitim.


Then nung mag dedebut na ko which was nung second year college, my mom told me na mag start a ulit akong magpaputi para maganda na ko sa debut. So I started using again pero dahil nasunog skin ko sa Volleybal nung previous semester, di ko magawang pumuti agad. Kasi nag cocomute pa din naman ako and naaarawan. So hindi ko talaga magawang pumuti ng sobra. 



Pinagamit ako ni mama ng Ultra Intensity a month before my debut. Then tinry ko umiwas talagang magpa araw. Dapat talaga maganda ako sa debut ko. Lol. Kaya nung day na ng debut ko, maputi na ko ulit. Then after that tinutuloy tuloy ko na pag gamit ko ng MAPS. Nag start na din ako mag papayat. Nung nag 18 years old ako, naging conscious na ko sa itsura ko. Iwas na din ako sa araw. Kaya talaga namang nakita ng madami yung pagbabago ko.

I transformed... And dun na nagstart na mapansin ako sa College namin. Nag start na kong mapasali sa mga UST Pageants and naging consistent yung pag peperform ko sa mga events. Nagkaroon nadin ako ng mga pictorials sa UST and sa MAPS. 

Madaming nagulat sa transformation ko. Maliban kasi sa nagpaputi ako, nagpapayat din ako and nag pabrace. Naging conscious din ako sa hair ko kaya naman ang dami talagang nagbago.
May mga nagtatanong kung nagparetoke daw ba ko kaya ako gumanda. Actually, natatawa na lang ako pag may nagsasabi na may pinagawa ako sa mukha ko

Ang lagi ko lang sagot "Ganun na ba ko kaganda at napagkakamalan niyo kong nagparetoke?". Nakaka flatter yung mga compliments pero for me hanggat hindi ako grumagraduate hindi pa talaga ako puputi ng sobra. Kasi bumabyahe pa din ako from Cainta to UST araw araw so talagang naiinitan ako. Sunblock na lang talaga ang kakampi ko sa mga pagkakataong hindi ko maiwasang hindi magpaaraw.

Naging sobrang maarte ako sa balat ko noon. Lagi akong may payong sa bag. I make sure na dala ko lagi sunblock ko. Then yung Tretinoin Soap ko, consistent. Yung Super Whitening sa face ginagamit ko na din every night. Gamit ko nung mga 4th year College ako was "5 in 1 Lotion". Hindi kasing taas ng "Super Whitening" and "Ultra Intensity Lotion" yung whitening content niya pero nagustuhan ko siya kasi nakaka mositurize siya ng sakin and nakakaputi din naman. Ayaw kasi ako bigyan ni mama ng matataas na whitening content na lotions kasi nag aaral pa ko. Sabi niya after college na lang daw para hindi sayang.

Tanggap ko noon na hindi talaga ako puputi ng bongga habang nag aaral pa ko dahil naaarawan talaga ako madalas. Hindi maiwasan. Kaya ang sabi ko na lang.... babawi ako after I graduate.


Then I graduated.


I started taking "REALLY GOOD CARE" of my skin.


Hindi na ko nagpapa-araw.



More people started noticing my big change right after graduation. 

Currently I'm happy contented with my skin, most especially with my face. I don't wear so much make up anymore. I don't need foundations and I don't always have to primp every time. I'm more confident now than ever. 

Currently these are the products that I'm using:

For my face:
1. Super Whitening w/ Anti Aging Stem Cell
2. Whitening Cream
3. Firming Anti Aging
4. Sunblock 70

For my Body:
1. Ultra Intensity Lotion
2. Firming Chitosan Body Moisturizer
3. Sunblock 125
4. Bleaching Milk Scrub

When it comes to Soap, I try everything but Tretinoin Soap and Milk AHA Moisturizer Soap ang favorites ko.


Basta pag magpapaputi, kailangan lang talaga ng tyaga. Hindi sya parang magic na bigla ka na lang puputi. Kailangan talaga may consistency ka sa pag gamit and talagang aalagaan mo yung skin mo. 

It requires commitment!

So kung hindi mo kayang mag commit, wag mo nang simulan kasi magsasayang ka lang ng effort and money. 

It will take patience and consistency, but it'd be worth everything!



Wednesday, August 24, 2016

How I Learned to Love Myself




Grade 6 Photo

“Hmmm. Okay naman kung sasabak ka sa showbiz e. Pero magpaputi ka muna and magpapayat ka na din. Try mo baka sakaling makapasok ka” 



Hindi ko makakalimutan ang mga salitang ito na sinabi sakin ng bading na talent scout seven years ago. Lagi kasi nila kinukuha si mama na mag play sa mga shows then pag wala akong pasok sumasama ako. Dream ko before ang maging sikat na singer kaya naging interested talaga ako sa pagpasok sa showbiz. Pero dahil nga di ako maganda, maitim ang balat at mataba… e hindi naging madali. Wala kasi kasi akong pake sa itsura ko ng mga panahong yun. Kain lang ako ng kain tapos bilad sa araw. 



First Year College in UST
UST Finance Ambassador and Ambassadress 2014

ko, tinry ko ulit. Nakapasok ako ng Top 5 and nakakuha ng award sa 2nd Pageant ko. Then after ng ilang months, pinipilit nila akong sumama sa audition for the Thomasian Ambassador and Ambassadress. Tinanggihan ko na talaga yun. Di na kasi siya kasya sa schedule ko. Maliban kasi sa super busy ko dahil graduating student ako, may dalawang malalaking event pa ko na kailangan asikasuhin dahil ako yung Project Head. Nakakatuwa lang no? Dati e ako pa yung nag pupumilit na sumali sapageant pero ayaw nila sakin. SIno ba mag aakala na makakasali ako ng pageants sa UST? Never have I imagined na mangyayari yun.

UST Finance Ambassadress  2015











Then I reached 18 and NAGBAGO ANG LAHAT. Bigla ko gustong magpapayat. Nag enroll ako sa gym, nag braces ako para umayos ngipin ko, nagpadigital ako ng hair at nagpaputi ako. I started being concious sa mga kinakain ko. Inalagaan ko na yung skin ko and nag start na kong makisabayan sa mga #ootd post.



Then pagdating sa pananamit e shirt at pantalon lang talaga ako. Pinapagalitan nga ako ng nanay ko lagi kasi ang baduy ko daw manamit pero wala talaga akong pake ng mga panahong yun. May mga taong nam bubully, kesho “negra” daw ako, malapad noo ko na pwede nang landing-an ng airport. Hindi ako makapag shorts kasi ang dami kong peklat dahil sa hilig kong makipaglaro sa labas ng bahay. Dagdag mo pa yung appetite ko na laging gutom. 

So in short, I was the “Matabang, Negrang Peklatin na malapad ang Noo”

There were people na talagang mamatahin ka dahil sa itsura mo. Ang masakit e lagi kang macocompare sa ibang tao. It came to the point na I gave up my dream na makapasok ng showbiz dahil nga hopeless itsura ko. I mean let’s be realistic. Sa showbiz naman kasi it’s either super talented ka or sobrang ganda ka o kaya naman sobrang pangit ka. Bawal ang average.

Then college came. I was out of my comfort zone. First time kong makisalamuha sa sobrang daming tao. And ang daming magaganda at gwapong studyante sa UST na para bang pag nakita mo, lol… Mukha akong pulubi pag tumabi sa kanila. Nakaka insecure noon pero inisip ko na lang na pagbubutihin ko na lang ulit studies ko. Kanya kanyang porte lang yan. Dyan kayo sa pageants at pag papaganda, ako dito na lang sa pag aaral. Tinanggap ko na lang na never ko ma eexperience ang pagsali sa pageants sa ust kasi di naman ako qualified.

Then I met my “FIRST UST CRUSH”

Grabe. Sobrang gwapo niya talaga. Para siyang anghel na bumaba sa lupa. OA pero legit. Commercial Model kasi e. Pareho kaming commerce lol. Few rooms away lang siya sakin pero WTH hindi niya na naman ako mapapansin. Duhh. Isa kaya siya sa mga candidate for Mr. Commerce. E di hamak na mag aaral lang naman ako. Tapos yung mga babaeng nililigawan niya ang chx sobra. Walang wala ako. Grabe, first heartbreak ko sa UST yun. Hindi kasi niya talaga ako pinapansin.

Then one day, naghahanap ng representative yung section namin para sa Commerce Pageant. Grabe kahit di ako qualified nag presenta ako. Gustong gusto kong sumali non para mapansin ako ng crush ko. Kaso ayaw sakin ng mga classmates ko. Matatalo lang daw kami pag ako. Oh well, hindi ko naman sila masisisi. LOL.


My friends started to notice the changes. I started getting compliments. Then on my 3rd year in College, I was chosen as the representative of our section for the Finance Ambassador and Ambassadress. Ayaw ko talaga sumali kasi nga I know naman na hindi ako yung girl na pwede mong ilaban sa pageants. Pero tinry ko kasi inisip ko matatanggal din naman ako sa audition. Then after a week, I found out na nakapasok ako then yun nga... That was my first pageant in UST. Year after t hat, gusto ulit nila ako isali. Ayaw ko na talaga that time kasi nahihiya na ko kasi ang feeler ko naman. Pangalawang beses na. Pero dahil mapilit mga classmates


It's not easy. Madaming frustrations and disappointments, but what will keep you going is your commitment and love for yourself. 


Kahit ako na sobrang bongga na yung transformation, marami pa akong gustong iimprove sa sarili ko. I still have lots of goals in life that I want to accomplish. Madami sa goals ko ay parang malayo pa at matagal ko pang maabot but I don't think that I'll stop changing for the better. 


I don't think I'll ever stop loving myself.




I decided to post this hindi para ikwento yung love story namin ng crush ko #Char I’m posting this for all the girls out there na super insecure sa kanilang katawan, mukha, kutis, buhok at kung ano ano pang kaartehan sa buhay. I just want to say na 



“Don’t give up on yourself because nobody’s gonna love yourself better than you do”

I know hindi basehan ang physical appearance para sa value ng isang tao, pero if you know naman sa sarili mo na you can still be better and you can still improve yourself on any aspect, then why settle? Kung mataba ka ngayon and you realized na you need to start sweating for the benefit of your health, then go move your ass dude. If you’re insecure about your skin then take care of it. Madaming skin care products sa market. All you have to do is choose wisely (Proud #MAPSLavishlyWhiteningUser Here). If you’re hating your hair… go get a haircut or hair color. Madaming pwedeng gawin kung gugustuhin.


What important is the purpose of what you’re doing. It should be for yourself and nobody else.



Dahil sa mundong madaming mapanlait at mapanghusga, magiging masaya ka lang kung pipiliin mong mahalin kung sino ka.

That’s what I did tho. I loved myself first and never stopped changing for the better.

So thank you sa lahat ng panlalait and pam bubully sakin before.

Those hurtful words serve as my motivation to never stop improving myself. For those na nakakaranas ng mga ganung sitauation ngayon, never let their words pull you down. Make them your motivaton. 















Things To Do After College


Things I Must Do After I Graduate


I've been feeling really excited about the things that I would want to do once I graduate next year in the University of Santo Tomas, BSBA College of Commerce and Business Administration Major in Financial Management. I came from a conservative family and my parents are really strict so there are things that I would want to experience, but I couldn't because they wouldn't allow me to do so. They would only permit me to do everything I want once I graduate college. Also, with me having lots of priorities in life like studies, organization stuff (which I'm an officer), and being one of the trusted owners in our family business, I don't have much time to do the things that I really want to do. So the idea of me graduating gives a super wide smile on my lips. That's why I decided to list down the things that I would want to do once I graduate.



Workout Regularly




I always want to workout and live a healthy lifestyle, but due to my very busy school and business schedule, it's hard to regularly go to gym for workout. I believe I have more time when I graduate and I will definitely make more time.





 Learn How to Cook


Since I love eating so much, it is a must for me to learn how to cook. I would like to learn different Pinoy dishes like sinigang, adobo, sisig, bulalo, papaitan, and etc. I would also love to learn how to cook pastas! I love pastas, most especially Lasagna.



Learn How to Bake


It's not enough that I know how to cook! I must also learn how to bake cakes, brownies, cookies and etc. These sweets are worth the effort.




 Go To a Party and Get Wasted 


I’ve only been to a real bar once and it was a party for all the students taking the Major of Financial Management in UST. I only went because of the incentives in our major subjects. I’m not really a party girl. I’m the kind of girl who would rather stay at home and watch koreanovelas or romcom movies while eating pizza or ice cream (This is love). I have never experienced to be drunk. I’m not really a fan of alcohol to make it simple. I want to experience those things after I graduate though. I want to know how it feels to be totally drunk and wasted.  I want to know if people really do forget the things that they do when they are drunk. I want to try it, even just for once.



Visit my Pax Romana


I will still go back to my Pax Romana every time there will be events and activities. I will watch and guide the new members of the organization as they pursue the goals not only of the organization, but also the growing family of Pax Romana. It's kinda exciting to be one of the alumni of Pax! Every time I see our alumni having fun together, I can't help but to see myself joining them a year from now.



Watch WWE Live


I badly want to be in one of those people’s shoes. Being able to watch WWE, more preferably Wrestlemania, is one of my childhood dreams. I’ve been a wrestling fan since I was in Grade 5 and I was really addicted to it, most especially to John Cena and the D-Generation X. Oh my God, I just love them. I want to be on one of those seats someday while wearing a Cena or DX shirt. I would surely cheer for them until I lose my voice.



Attend Coachella and Dress like Vanessa Hudgens


I want to experience this big summer event! And also, even at least for once, I want to be as hot/sexy/pretty/beautiful as Vanessa Hudgens. She’s the Coachella Queen! She dressed weird, combining different outfits and accessories, yet she looks astounding! Her confidence is really admirable and if I would be given a chance to switch body and face with anyone for a day, with no second thought, I’d pick to switch with her.



Meet Zachary David Alexander Efron, Again


I had the chance to talk to him last September 29, 2012 in his Fan Con in Mall of Asia Arena. The moment was unforgettable and that was one of the best birthday gifts that God has given me. He asked me to go backstage with him after the show, but due to some circumstances, he was forced to leave earlier and wasn’t able to meet me. I can still remember myself arguing with the bouncers because they didn’t want me to go in. I was explaining that Zac did ask me to go in there. Well, when they got pissed… they threw me out of the arena. I didn’t regret any of my actions though. At least I tried my best to be able to see him. Even if it means being kicked out of the arena.


Out of the Country with my Best friends



I so love these two! I would like to go out of the country with the two of them. I was planning to do that right after I graduate, but I will be graduating a year earlier than them so I guess I have to wait until they finish their studies. Anywhere with them would be fine because as long as the three of us are together, every place is special. We kinda live in a special world ya know! 




Ice Skating in New York



Never have tried ice skating. I want to experience it in New York during Christmas Season.






Watch the Sunset in Paris


Always dream to visit the city of love.






Have a Piggy Back Ride and Drink Soju in Korea


I would love to go to Korean with my boyfriend someday. We will drink “Soju” together in the streets and when I get drunk, he’ll give me a “Piggy Back Ride”. This is probably one of my relationship goals. Oh well, blame the koreanovelas for this.





Bungee Jumping In Macau


I’ve been to Macau Tower, the world’s tallest bungee jumping tower, last 2013 and I really wanted to try Bungee Jumping, but my mother didn’t allow me so from that day on, I promised myself to go back in there and try it. I want to try skydiving too, but after the videos that I saw about the accidents that occurred because of it, I’ll just settle for Bungee Jumping. I believe in the saying that “You Only Leave Once”, but I think “You Only Die Once” is more convincing.





Go To Dubai




Dubai is one of the best countries to travel to. I want to experience that Underwater Roller Coaster. I’ll stay in the Underwater Hotel. I’ll play tennis in that skyscraper and go to the top of the tallest tower in the world, experience everything! Enjoy the beauty of the country.



Visit United States








To visit the United States is a childhood dream of mine. The first time I saw the "Statue of Liberty", the first thing that came to my mind is "I swear, I'll see you close up someday". From that moment I knew that I wanted to go to United States and that desire grows deeper because of my cousins who live there. I badly want to see Liam and Caeden. I have only seen Caeden once, when he went here in the Philippines five years ago and they haven't returned since then. I haven't seen Liam though. I only talk to him through facetime. I also want to visit the Disneyland in California. I've been to Hong Kong Disney land and it was an amazing experience. They said that the Disneyland in California is way more amazing than in any other counties! I also want to see the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco. There are so many things that I would want to do when I go there. Well, I pray... pray and pray!




Travel Alone


Though I will be accompanied by my family or friends when I travel, I also want to experience traveling alone. The thought could be scary, but I would like to feel being independent and not having to think about anyone else. I would love to have the real adventure of traveling.


Build a Snowman


Never have I experienced snow, but I really want to build a snowman!





Write and Publish a Book


One of my goals before I die is to be able to publish a book written by me. Obviously, I have this great passion in writing and I’m very hopeful that someday I will be able to touch the heart of people and give inspiration to others through my books. As one of my favorite professors said in one of her classes in Economics, “You will soon die and leave this Earth, but when you have already published a book... your thoughts will live forever”.





Attend Seminars in Different Countries


I believe that no one should ever stop learning. Seminars about cosmetics, aesthetics, business opportunities or anything that tackles my interests would be the ones that I’d attend to.





Cosmetic Training


I would love to study and have more training about cosmetics since I would be the one handling the business after I graduate. 




Study another Language



I would like to study Chinese again since I have already a background in this language. But I’m also considering Korean, Spanish or French.




Enroll to English Speaking Class


Though I can speak and understand English very well… I’m still not satisfied. I want to reach the point when I don’t even have to think about translating my thoughts into English language. 




Get an Apple MacBook Laptop


I want to replace my Acer laptop already with an Apple Laptop. My Acer functions really slow and pisses me every time. I want to buy a new one already, but replacing it with Mac is really expensive and I don’t want to burden my mom with that cost just for my unnecessary needs. So I’ll just buy a new one right after I earn and I would love to have this color. Gold, so luxurious!




Own a Car


I already have a car, but I would like to buy a new one out from own sweat. I would like it to be like that… hot pink, so Sharpay Evans inspired!





Own a Fancy Restaurant


Maybe I should start planning my dream restaurant as early as now.





Own a Condominium


I would like to own a condo as amazing as this. Preferably, my unit would be in high floors and has a door or window that could show how beautiful the sun rises and sets.





Establish a School



I would want my school to be Tuition Free and this school is for those kids who are devoted in studying but don’t have enough money to study. For short, I want this to become a school for young scholars. I want this school to produce excellent young students and I believe that when a kid is taught how to treasure studying at young age, he will carry that skill till he grows up.





Help a Charity and Church


With all the blessings that God will be giving, it is just to help those people who are in need and help the church in their mission.