Hi Ladies! Welcome to my online diary. I am known in Youtube as a Beauty & Lifestyle Vlogger (you may check out my Youtube Channel), but before I got into youtube, I have already written numerous books on Wattpad and had posted several blogs on my old sites. I don’t want to lose my passion in writing that’s why I decided to start blogging again. This site is about my journey and I’d be more than happy to share with you. Xoxo, Lady Martin


Monday, April 13, 2020

One night can change your whole life.

I've been staring at a blank screen for a while now... I actually don't know how to start. I've written a lot of poems, blogs and stories already, but why is it so hard for me to write this one...

a love letter


I used to write about the things that hurt me... people that did me wrong. I used to write down every single ache, fear, doubt... I used to write with a tear rolling down my face. I used to write about sadness, pain, broken heart and broken promises. I used to write just about those.

But you came

I can still remember the very first night we met. The very first time we talk... and how I tried to stay close to you for the whole night. We had fun together with our friends. I just couldn't keep my eyes off of you that night. You were too handsome. You are exactly my type. I thought I wasn't your type though, because you kept talking with your other friends. You were also texting non stop (rolling my eyes right now). I thought you had a girlfriend... but then you offered me a drink. You even asked me to go down to 7/11 with you because you have to charge your phone. Then you asked if you could drive me home. I told you that I was staying till four in the morning to see Wil Dasovish and asked you to not wait for me... but you stayed. You waited till I saw Wil. After that, we both went down with Teejay. Teejay was teasing you that time, but you weren't saying anything. You were just smiling.

December 8, 2018
Baninay Bautista's Despedida Party

On the road, you were playing rap music. You were shamelessly singing along. I thought you have an amazing voice. That was our first night together, but you looked so comfortable already. Then we went to a drive thru in Jollibee. With your car parked in front of the store, I was looking at you. I wasn't sure if you noticed, but I just can't help myself. My eyes just can't stop admiring you.

"I am really having a good time right now. I think we would be a great couple... it's just sad that this is going to be our last night together" - this is what I thought.

From that very moment I knew that I liked you already, but at that very moment too, I knew that we couldn't be together. I don't know why I thought of that, but I just knew that nothing will happen between us. 

But here I am now... writing my very first love letter.

I had a hard time starting this letter, because this is different. For the first time in my life, I have finally written something that makes my heart happy. I am no longer drawn into sad songs. I can no longer relate to sad quotes. I no longer think that I could never find someone that would love me so much. I no longer say "Sana All", because you are already giving me your all.

The saying is right... "Good things come when you least expect it", and you are my favourite unexpected gift. Our love story may not be the usual one. We've been through so much first before getting to this point. And if I'd be given a chance to go back from the very beginning and repeat the whole process just to be with you again... I'd do it in a heart beat. Being with you is one of the best decisions I've ever made. I will never ever regret saying "yes" to you. You are my first and if God will permit... I want you to be my last. 

                            Who would have thought that "that night" was not our last night?


Happy 2nd Monthsary, Mahal! 
We're still stuck in the quarantine. 
Can I be stuck in your heart instead? 

I love you.